robots cant love

crazy

2006-09-26T18:32:00.000-07:00

we spoke early. i cried... a lot. the day at school was doomed from the get-go. you dont seem fased by this the slightest bit. i am. you cant make up your mind. i hope you feel this pain too

FOCUS ON A CLEAR MIND.

YOU HAVE MY HEART, but baby hurry before we're lost.

2006-09-25T16:26:00.000-07:00

your not any better than anyone and i dont understand why now you think you are... how is it possible that someone can go through such a drastic change in a matter of weeks go from so exiting and fun and loving to this boring asshole who only cares about himself and prettymuch nothihng else ... he used to be such a sweetheart a creative and unique boy and i loved everything about him... but now... well now hes not who i fell in love with... he usedto try so hard to give and be humble... not anymore i dont know or care about whats going through his head... i really really really wish i could just slap him and he'll snap out of it... will he snap out of it... hes so full of himself and it discusts me... is it a faze? im hoping. i know we belong together... but if this is the way things are now then i cant see myself with him. i think ive been just waiting for things to change but im starting to think i should just let go and when i do it kills me but i think in about a month maybe less he'll be some guy i dated. we're talking less and less cuz every time we try to hang out it doesnt happen and when i do hang out, him and his friend talk to me like they are better than everyone and he doesnt have the same spark and exitement about him he was fun... i miss him... the old him. he was everything. i need something. anything. maybe he'll figure it out maybe not... maybe he is just ment to be some guy i dated. God will have his way...

im back

2006-09-23T12:44:00.000-07:00

im back on here. its been a while, but i really need something right now. i hoped this would help me say what i was thinking. i dont this anyone else will be reading this. this could just be for me. theres no one i need to impress or anyone who really should know what im thinking... telling other people how i feel isnt my thing. no one matters enough.... eventhough i wish i had someone to matter. fnlsjdf new subject...

this human world angers me. why do we have to comunicate though words words are nothing... i wish we could all just "live off love" (think about it, you have your own meaning) i dont understand why people have to deny it... love is a beautiful thing... the whole world should expierence it and not bombard the world with stress/ drama and not worry about other stupid things. people just worry too much... i wish this world would just change already. theres so much to say about this world but not today......

my day
rode my bike in the rain with my ipod and the air felt so cold and crisp as i rode the rain would blow into my face and would fall down my face like i was crying and i couldnt help but smile. just about everything made me smile. today was the 1st day in a while that i told myself that i loved life. evey song just made me dance(yes i was dancing while on the bike) so i did. i really had no place to go and at 1st it made me quite sad to be alone but once i het my 1st puddle i was SO good. then.... my tire went flat. i wish i was at peace with the world liek that all the time... but i know i cant be. right now especially. i want to i really do but people want me to be strong and i want me to be strong. things will get better without a doubt this human world bring too much pain.